20th wedding anniversary/divorce end.....?

This would have been my 20th anniverary today. This is my first since. I held my dads hand when he died. I watched my grandmother take her last breath. I cradled my brothers dead body in the er when he died. And now I hold another shadow in my arms.
Shadows represent the setting in of the night. When the sun is setting on the days events. As I mark this passing of this event, the shadows grow dark on my heart. But I ask you, what kind of person would I be if I did not feel or care? Not to watch my wedding video one last time before putting it away. I mourn cause I am human just like you, my friends.